I have this really weird job where I get paid to listen and give advice reflecting back what I’m hearing…on how you can best live your life.
I mean, in theory, I would really have to know what I’m talking about to be trusted with such an important task.
Who am I to tell you how to live a life that feels right for you? I’m not living in it. In truth, I’m some chick that has a few pieces of paper in a closet somewhere that deems me an “expert.” Is that enough?
Nope. It’s not.
Why do I know I can be trusted? Because I trust myself.
Most of the people who show up in my office, or in my inbox, are at a point where they simply don’t trust themselves and the information they are getting from the outside world.
They are confused and feel lost from strong emotions that have them down, anxious and angry.
They struggle with understanding the events around them and their purpose and are not sure what steps to take next because the ones they are taking don’t seem to be getting them on a path they want to be on.
And I, with all my own expertise in feeling lost and sad and anxious and angry, can thoroughly relate.
I know what it’s like to question my every move and hope that my decisions are “good enough” or won’t steer me down a dark alleyway that will leave me feeling terrified I took a very bad turn.
Because of this, I also know the only way off of this merry go round of confusion is to TRUST. Trust that I know what I’m doing and I can’t screw it up, and trust the process of life won’t let me even if I could. How do I know I can trust? Because I practice every single day.
And I really mean practice. Some days it all seems obvious that I cannot and will not mess it up, or it won’t get screwed up for me.
Other days, I am nearly certain that I have no idea what I’m doing and I need all the support I can get to reassure me that I do.
I’ll fill myself with fear and have to go through my mental checklist of why I know that is not true. It can be pretty tiresome, but on the days that I see the truth, that I really do know what I’m doing—it’s all completely worth it.
The tricks and practices I use to help me on my off days are pretty simple, and also super effective.
List them all out. What are the fear voices telling me? What’s the worst case scenario?
Once I’ve identified the fears, I write down what I am in control of and what I am not in control of.
Are there things I can do to help alleviate my fears? Action steps I can take? If so, write them down and choose which ones I’ll do.
And the ones I’m not in control of? Well, that leads me to practice #2.
What do I believe in? I believe in a power that is greater than me. Sometimes I call it the Universe, sometimes I call it God, sometimes I call it Life.
One of my clients calls it the Tarantula Gods. That creeps me out and makes me laugh at the same time.
It doesn’t really matter what you call it. What do you believe is its purpose and what is the impact you feel it has on your life?
I believe both you, and I are connected to this power intuitively. You may even call it your Higher Self- your intuition that knows what it’s doing.
I believe that all of our experiences happen for a reason and that we are guided by this power to help us out along the way.
I also believe that we are supported by this power and we are given what we need to keep us safe, comfortable and to live and thrive.
So, when I am struggling to trust myself, or when I feel I am not in control of something, I go back to my core beliefs and remember that I am supported already and I will be more than okay…because I always am. Which leads me to practice #3.
I have spent lots of time worrying about things that never happened. I tried to mentally control them with my mind.
It turns out, that never actually works. Sometimes I feared the worst until the bitter end and was proven that the worst was only in my mind.
It rarely ever comes to fruition. And if it did, I learned some invaluable knowledge I wouldn’t have learned if the outcome had been different. Something positive always rises from the challenges.
Whether it’s knowledge, or strength or an experience that is life altering in a powerful way- the good balances out the difficult parts. Every time.
When I look at my past, I see that I am always supported and there is nothing I can not handle.
I am always given what I need when I need it. And usually, the fears are just ideas that get replaced with the next one.
They simply are thoughts ready to be acknowledged and moved on from.
I listen to my feelings. I let myself feel them and tell me where it is I want to be. This is my intuition speaking to me.
I recognize the answers that feel right. I take out the fear to make them more clear.
I let myself look at whatever it is and ask if I fully trusted, what would I do? This is what helps me manage the clutter in my mind.
I let myself feel and I remind myself that my feelings do not steer me wrong. Because in truth, there is no wrong.
Every direction takes me where I say I want to go. The road there may just look different.
There’s nothing wrong with asking for help when you feel stuck.
It’s helpful to hear other perspectives. Then you can determine what feels right for you and take away what you want and leave behind what you don’t.
But, this is a big one. When we don’t trust ourselves, it’s easy to ask other people for their opinion or view.
We feel maybe they know more than we do. We trust their life experiences over our own.
The danger with this is that often people give advice through their own filter which means, they may speak through their fears or experiences that left them feeling distrustful.
What’s right for them, may not be what’s right for you. The best advice is your own.
If you have someone who can reflect back what you are saying and feeling to you in a way that makes it not about them- this is awesome. And valuable.
But the key is to look at your feelings, not theirs. Only yours are designed for you.
Trust is a practice. And that is okay. Fear is a normal part of life and it has its purpose.
It’s important for us to feel all of our emotions so we can pick and choose the ones we want to focus on.
Faith feels amazing when we wallow in fear for a while. It also helps us to want to practice feeling it more.
Go ahead, trust yourself. You really do know what you’re doing.